They Always Come Running Back..

To start of this post properly I need to explain to everyone that I am truly a skeptic at heart. I question everything. I find that there is more fraudulence in most things than truth. Not to say that I believe everything is false I just feel that the truth is hidden and we must work at finding it. I feel that too many people in the world believe something because they read it on the internet or heard it “through the grapevine”.

There was a point in my life where I felt that this “quote” was just another one of those things that people say to you to help you feel better about your break-up. Well I am living proof that this saying has some validity to it.

So here’s my story…

I was in a junior in a private high school. Yes, you just read it right a private high school eekk.. (I’ll save that explanation for another post) Well, I met this guy lets call him Thomas. He was tall, tan, and completely adorable. I think he was most attractive when he smiled which of course was rare. We went out on our first date that I actually made happen. It was quite a night! We got to know each other very well. We began our relationship that next week after our date. We shared a lot of things together. He was my prom date, junior college boyfriend. Lets face it if my name came up in a conversation Thomas’ was next up. We were that couple that everyone would always say WOW! they are still together. All though, we were not as perfect as we seemed. Toward the end of our relationship he began to show that he was not committed or interested in our relationship any longer.

Fast forward almost three years and we break up. I was heartbroken to say the least. I had begun to get to the point where I didn’t see my life without him in the picture somewhere. Looking back the break-up was one of the best things for me! Being the skeptic I am I look back in disbelief that I had been so stupid. How could I have become so dependent on someone else to complete my life? I needed to get back to MY life! Now saying that was the easiest part. I had not realized how difficult it would be to be okay without Thomas.

I cried for many nights and cried a whole lot more when he got a new girlfriend. Of course out of anger I went and found other guys to hang out with. As many of you girls know its not hard to find guys to be around however, it is extremely difficult to find guys you want to be around.  That being said I did not find anyone that I enjoyed being around more than Thomas. I found a couple of good guy “friends”, but we all know that NEVER works out. I even found a guy that I was sexually attracted to. The only problem was that he wasn’t the kind of guy that I would want to be in a relationship with.

Now I hope everyone is keeping up… Fast forward a little over a year.

Thats right I started dating Thomas at 16 and now I am 20 years old. It kills me that one guys has consumed me for such a long time.

Well, here it comes after a year and four months of not hardly speaking except for a text message here and there Thomas tells me that he misses me. Of course I tell him I miss him as well, not thinking much of it. I figured it was a platonic I miss you, but I don’t want to get back together with you. Well boy was I wrong! He wanted to get back together with me pretty badly. I of course was very skeptic of his motives. Therefore, I told him that we would need to spend some time together and see where it goes. Well of course, now I am wondering Did I make the right decision?

I fully believe that there was no right or wrong option for me. I had to go with my gut. Which let me add is one of my least favorite things to do! I like to be able to weigh the pros and cons and then make somewhat of an informed decision. I fear that the only way I am going to be able to tell if I made the right decision or not is see what happens. I need to see if he truly has changed and then decide if I want to continue with him.

So obviously, as you can see the question isn’t whether or not they will come running back. The question is when they do come back will you let them back in or not. [and that is a question only you can answer for yourself]

Feel free to comment if you would like. I am sharing this story to help those of you dealing with a heartbreak.

My First Post

Normally I tend to be a very private person. I have not thought that any of my thoughts were necessarily worth sharing with others or that anyone may be interested in what I have to say. With that said this blog is going to be full of my thoughts and life experiences. I hope you enjoy and can find my words interesting. My goal is that my thoughts have an impact on others in a positive way somehow. Please feel free to comment and let me know what you think.

Well here it goes………..

I am a college student who recently moved out on my own. It has been a very interesting experience to say the least. At first I was very scared and nervous, but after it was all said and done I absolutely loved it! It is a liberating feeling knowing that you can do whatever you like and no one is there to ask you what time you will be home or if they think you should go. I have not come from a family that was super strict but more protective than anything. I by no means feel like I had the best childhood, but either way for better or worse it shaped me into the adult that I am now. Wow! its so weird to be able to call myself an adult.
I am 20 years old at the moment however I have a birthday coming in about 6 months, the big 21! That will be an exciting milestone in my life that I have been looking forward to since I was about 15. Although the more I think about it the more I realize that once you turn 21 thats it. What else is an exciting milestone birthday after you turn 21? I can’t really think of one which is somewhat depressing within the last few months I have really realized how much I have aged and matured over the years. Its one thing to look at the pictures and see how you have changed physically, but it is especially liberating to realize how much you have grown on the inside as well.

I personally feel like the best is yet to come for me. Even though I will always look back at my childhood years and smile that is not where I would rather be. Of course being a child seems easy because you don’t have any real responsibilities, but it was a very trying time for me. I am happy to be at the point in my life where I now have complete control over what I achieve.

I look forward to the journey through adulthood and all of the experiences that will come with it!