I Should Be Excited Shouldn’t I?

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My first semester out of the community college is over. Just yesterday I was moving into my apartment and getting to know my roommates. I remember worrying over where my classes would be at this huge university. I remember getting misty eyed at the thought that for the first time in my life I would live alone. I then remember the next weekend where I was delighted to realize I had no rules. I could easily go out with my friends and return whenever I chose.

I don't need a huge party to have a good time

I don’t need a huge party to have a good time!

I think now and realize that the whole “college experience” isn’t all it is cracked up to be. I do not have a bunch of friends that I go to crazy parties with. In fact, I have just a handful of friends here. I still have all of my friends back home and I miss them. Thankfully my university is not far too from home. However, with a job, many hours of homework, and still finding time to go to my workout class, I rarely have time to drive a little over an hour home to spend time with my friends. It’s a sad thing to realize that I am truly growing up. I have bills, other important responsibilities. I do not miss living with my father, but I miss being close to everyone I know.

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When I graduate and get a job I wonder where I will work? Where I will then live is extremely dependent on where I work. I will not have homework any longer so I will hopefully have some more time to do things I enjoy. This whole college experience should be exciting I think. I don’t see it that way for some reason. I see it as just another step of life.

I’m not excited to be here any longer. I hated the community college I went to. It seemed like I had graduated high school and then decided to return for two more years. Who would do that? Yes it saved me a lot of money. However, that did not make it anymore enjoyable for me. I have never really enjoyed the school atmosphere. I love to learn and get good grades. (yes, I am a bit of an over achiever) What I don’t like is all the other people. I don’t like the snap judgements people make of you the moment you walk into the room. I have never been big on drama. I never did extracurricular activities. The sooner I was out the better. I have come to find that a university is no different.

I plan to have 3 more semesters here and be done. I don’t know what the next step will be for me. I would love to then move on to law school however, that is 6 more semesters of craziness. It is a big decision and there is a lot of cost that goes into it as well. I will see what happens. There is one thing I know for sure though. I love independence and cannot wait to get out of the mundane routine of school and begin to make my own rules for my life.

I can't wait

I can’t wait

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The Best Birth Control Possible

DSC_0017Disclaimer: This post was written with my own personal experiences in mind. I do not mean to be offensive in any way.

I personally have always had doubts about whether or not I would ever like to have children. They take a lot of hard work and effort. It is a serious commitment. A commitment that too many people don’t take seriously enough if you ask me. For example a lot of girls that I graduated with in high school got pregnant shortly before or after graduation. All those girls were crazy in my mind! However, I partly must blame their parents.

And I will now let you in on the secret….

Their parents should have given them siblings, lots and lots of them. I personally believe that siblings are probably the best birth control possible. Especially my sister, she can be quite a hellion. Kids are so much work and without the proper care they may not become the best possible version of themselves.
I love my sister so much but she definitely has taught me many things about kids, that have made me think twice about procreating:

1. Girls are hormonal long before they hit puberty.

2. As much as I want to hate her I cannot.

3. Children are a sponge they will learn everything you do (good or bad).

4.  One of those boys in her life will take her heart and I will be terrified.

5. No matter the hate that her mother has instilled in her of me she finds a way to look past it and love me.

6. She never quits growing presently she is one inch shorter than me for now.

7. She confuses me beyond belief daily.

8. She is inconceivably innocent and fragile.

9. I can’t be her best friend until she is much older. No, now I must be her role model.

10. But most of all, I realized that my life has never been the same since she came into the picture.

Even though, a sibling is clearly not your child you get a feeling of responsibility for them. It is something that is almost impossible to explain. I would not trade my sister for the world but, it has been a long ride that has barely begun.

I know there will be many times yet to come where:

I will want to strangle her for any careless decisions. I will become angry with the boys who break her heart. I will be there to listen to her worries, fears, and worst of all high school drama. I will be one phone call away when she needs a “girl’s day” to escape from reality. I will call her to catch up on her life events no matter how little they seem to me. I will always remember that I am her only sister and therefore, she expects the world of me. I will be there for her on every important event like her prom, graduation day, first job, first car, first date, wedding day, and oh my goodness her pregnancies.

While she is not my child she is my sister. Personally, I feel like being the sibling somehow has more responsibility than a parent. I will be there when our parents have passed. I will always be closer to her own age therefore, I will understand her easier (hopefully). I am the sister with whom she will confide in and I have to be there for all of those things that she will expect out of me.

I have a lot of responsibilities yet to come. I am not sure if I am prepared for them quite yet. However, ready or not here they come. Through all of this uncertainty I am sure that if I am not prepared to be a sister how in the world can I expect to be a parent right now.

If and when I become a parent I will have a new perspective and appreciation for the responsibilities that come with it.

Quitting Facebook is Impossible

There has been a lot of different “fads” throughout this world yet, not all of them seem to catch on as rapidly as Facebook has. I made my own page when I was 15 years old. I permanently logged off my MySpace account soon after that initial log onto Facebook. It’s honestly almost ridiculous how many people log onto Facebook daily. Yet many of us cannot fathom why we used to love MySpace so long ago. I wonder how long will it take for Facebook to be a thing of the past or will it ever?

In 2011 Facebook posted some statistics about their site, I wanted to share them with you. Even if you have heard these statistics before I hope that you would read  them again.

I don’t know your thoughts on those statistics, but the one that threw me for a loop was the fact that, 1 in every 13 people on earth log onto Facebook everyday! It’s not just us technology craved Americans who are addicted its the whole world! That honestly makes me sick. I have since deleted my Facebook page and have no intent of returning!

If any of you were thinking about deleting your Facebook then let me be your inspiration. I had a very hard time deciding to actually go through with it and deleting my connection to the social network. Even though we all know how addicting Facebook is for some reason the majority of us can’t let it go and for good reason. Who wouldn’t want to be able to see what everyone they know is doing.

Facebook is extremely addicting! You can read everything your friends post on their page. You can see where they have been and where they are going. That information itself is enough to draw anyone in.

Many people don’t take the time to realize the down side to posting your life on the internet. Many companies will not hire before they check Facebook pages. Think now about what pictures you have on your page. Would you put that picture on your resume? Most likely there is at least on picture you wouldn’t do that with.

While Facebook has great advantages, there is a fine line to was is risking to post. There are a lot of people that you can keep in touch with on Facebook and, if you enjoy having everyone know all about you then keep the profile.

With keeping the profile you will be able to keep in touch with many of your “fake” friends. Which of course is my absolute least favorite part of Facebook. After I deleted my page there is so many people that I have not heard from again. I realized I was never really friends with those people. I simply knew of them and could easily keep track of what they were doing while on Facebook.

While this post ended up sounding like a bit of a rant, that was not my intention.

My main point is you should reanalyze why it is you have a Facebook profile. If the pros outweigh the cons then congratulations keep the page. However, if you realize that Facebook has added nothing but drama to your life then, go on and delete it. You will feel great afterwards and, trust me, after a while you will not miss it.